I haven't written about this because its hard for me. You have to know what's important in your life and in most cases you don;t know till its gone. There was a time from November to the following July that you four (mom and chaser included) lived down state at your grand parents house. Those months were the hardest time in my life. I would wake up , shower go to work and work form 10am to 9pm every day simply because I did not want to go home. It was empty , dead and cold. There was no sound in the house at all. Most days I would keep it warmed to 57 degrees and only warm the house from 9pm to 11pm. I lost my mind. I had recycled papers every where, nothing in the fridge and no vegetables. I was lost. Many many days I would come home and just cry. I could not let you or your mom know because I had to stay strong. What I'm trying to say is that my family is the most important thing. You boys and your laughter , your smiles , the sitting and watching a movie are whats important to me. The ability to have a real sit down dinner with you three is a beautiful thing. You are my life.
Some times I yell but its only because I want and need you to do better than I did in school . I want you to have a better life than mine. You are smart and both good looking. You have no clue how important you are in my life. I thought I knew what was important but until you four left I really had no clue. I love you.
As always this is written with love
Dad
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